Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Happy New Year to me!

I cannot believe it's already end of January. I haven't blogged about my life, I guess it's easier to write when things are going wrong? I have had so many things going on in my head that I want to put down..my life has been so awesome, so blessed that I'm overwhelmed.

After being so anxious about not being able to go home for Christmas, it happened, God is soo good. I didn't have the money for it in August and I was depressed but God had it planned and it happened.

I loved loved every waking moment I spent at home. My parents, two brothers and sister were home on almost daily basis and I basked in that space, I felt so safe, so content. I was content on waking up to the sun, eating and having just regular conversation. So long as the people I loved were around me, I was fine. Did I say I love being home, life is so carefree, something that my son discovered. He could walk to the neighbor's house unattended, play for a while, walk to my aunts house, take a walk with his uncle. He was no longer solely dependent on me. He had a family, literally a village to spend time with. Sometimes I wonder if I missed this...the opportunity to give him that simplicity of life. I think about it often, but then that might have meant being away from him. I don't know. I know he loved it there and cried hard when we had to leave. Now it's just me and him and sometimes we get tired of each other.

My siblings have matured, they have lives of their own, they are such good 'kids' and I'm so proud of them. I wish I could see them everyday, really. My parents still the same, I may disagree with them on some issues but I love then dearly. They are loving, compassionate and spend a great deal of time and money helping other people. I love that about them.

I'm back to work, I really like this place, it really is very nurturing and I work with some phenomenal people. My bosses are great. When I work, I give it 110% like it's my business. I think that is how it should be.I'm in a great relationship, I feel more than I even want to reveal to myself.

I threw my son a great bowling party, he turned 6. My friends spoiled him rotten. He knows he's loved.

I'm blessed, so blessed I could write a book about it. I'm grateful and I'm looking for ways to pass it forward.