Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Is it fall already?

Yay!!! I'm in school...again, and I have to write not for fun but serious structured stuff. Not sure how well this will go down, but so far the stuff is interesting. Actually I'm understating it because I'm thoroughly in a not so surprising way enjoying school, I love learning about health etc and I feel like I'm in the right field. The work is another story especially taking Biostatistics and having to solve endless problems and derive equations....yuck, not really my strongest area. Actually I should be solving some of those now but I'm procrastinating since I kinda got lost in the class today and dreading having to go over all the unsolved x's and functions.

But I'm so thankful to God for how far I have come. I have to constantly remember to be thankful for what I have and not what I do not have or have not accomplished. After watching the Whitney Houston interview with Oprah two days in a row...and dang I'm suffering serious sleep deprivation for this, but I digress. She went through some rough stuff and Oprah was asking if she regrets..her answer was NO. I truly feel her on that. I have been through some crazy and mindblowing drama but somehow each of those experiences put in me something I know I would not possess by any other process. God has a way of doing things with us when we least expect it. I certainly don't wish my ish on anyone else so I'm asking God to help me be a good listener and be responsive to what he wants me to do. I've been making more compromises than I would want and doing things that I don't want to do and slacking on those I need to be doing. I want God to make me into the woman that he wants me to be and more than wanting, I feel God calling me to be the woman that he needs me to be, so I need to step it up and stop slacking.