I haven’t written lately, first because I was busy getting
married, getting used to being married and now, I can reflect…Hmm marriage is
great! I know it’s for me, I love having someone to come home to everyday, to
share my recipes and stories and crazy ideas. Marriage is also hard work as I’m
learning. Having someone next to you all of the time is going to annoy you at
some point. Let’s face it, we are selfish beings. I am a selfish person. I didn’t
think that way of myself until I got married. It just seems like my way is
better, why would you not neatly arrange dishes in the dishwasher, why not put
the socks in the right place, why do you have to change up your breakfast
routine? Why oh why?
The list is endless, but it all points to: I like things
the way I like them and having someone else do things different in your space
is challenging. So I’m accepting this challenge as God’s way of growing me out
of my selfishness and maturing me into someone more useful for him. Because let’s
face it, Jesus was not selfish, he gave of himself to people who did not
deserve it. I cannot think of anything more selfless. I strive to be like
Jesus, so I’m praying that God may do his work in this season to take out the
things that are not of him and make me more like Jesus. Just don’t make it so
painful Lord.
If you are going through a season that is challenging,
embrace what the Lord is doing. Pray, reflect, listen, he will show you the
things that need to change and enable you to do so, and in the process he will
give you grace as you learn to be more like him. Yes grace, we need it.
I believe firmly that the moment our hearts
are emptied of pride and selfishness
and ambition and everything that is contrary to God's law, the Holy Spirit will
fill every corner of our hearts. But if we are full of pride and conceit and
ambition and the world, there is no room for the Spirit of God. We must be
emptied before we can be filled - D.L. Moody
Every man must decide whether he will walk in
the light of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness- Martin Luther King, Jr.
