A is for Attitude

It’s amazing how much God hears me when I call on him. I was feeling so miserable yesterday thinking about all my unaccomplished goals, my “interesting” relationship…and I was angry. As I was driving home, Moody radio had a program on “Anger”. Good anger and bad anger. The bible says that we are not to let the sun go down while we are still angry. This, I am guilty of many times. This, because I lose focus, but it’s not about me, it’s about him, my creator, the giver of life and the taker of life. Then they talked about ‘good’ anger. You know the kind that Jesus had when he threw all those merchants out of the temple. Anger at injustice. I have to admit, I have that kind too. Social justice issues are dear to my heart.
God wasn’t done, this morning, I bumped into the blog of Eraina Davis, single mother of one, same age as myself who has beaten the odds and she can dare write a blog with the name “A good life”. She changed my attitude today. I do have a good life.Not only is she the most optimistic person I have ever “met”, she is truly guided by the scripture and she ends her blogs with a quote or verse. My sister from another mother. I could tell her attitude has taken her places. She could potentially have a lot to complain about, but there is no way she sould have worked through two Master’s degrees with a ‘poor me’ attitude. Wow! Heck, she just moved to Chicago!
Life is too short to sit here planning a pity party. Attitude is everything. Most importantly I should not forget where my help comes from. I’m pouting like I don’t have a father who knows the plans he has for me, who cares so much about everything he created..sparrows, flowers, why would I be doubting? Sometimes when we look around us, at all the things other people are accomplishing, at all our problems, we lose focus. Lord help me to keep my eyes on you. The world has nothing to offer me. There are illusions of happiness and temporary gratification all around me. My happiness comes from you.
Psalm 121
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

Joy

I’m just so full of joy this morning, when I woke up I felt like rejoicing and telling God how much I am grateful for his presence in my life. Nothing special happened, I didn’t win the lottery, I didn’t get a promotion, heck things are hard right now: I just started school this week and I have already submitted a couple assignments, my relationship/upcoming nuptials still in the works, my lil man started school (insert crazy morning routine) and I can’t figure what to do with my hair which is starting to be messy..but I digress. God is good, all the time. When I think about his goodness, I’m in awe. Why do I let the daily grind keep me in stress mode? When I look at the bigger picture, I see how God has worked in my life. Never did I imagine that at this age I would me mom to the most wonderful boy and making it solo. In this crazy economy, I have changed jobs 3 times and each time I got a little more than I could have asked for. I have not only enjoyed my classes in the last two years, I have excelled in them. When you have God on your side you should be excited at the things he will do in your life. Even in the bad times, trust me, God is teaching you something, so listen and learn-fast. Don’t be wandering in the wilderness for 40 years like the Israelites did. Do you know it would have only taken about 11 days to get to the Promised Land? Allow God and his word to transform you to what he wants you to be. God I pray that I may give you the space and time for you to transform me, because I do not want to dwell in the desert, I want to reach the Promised Land. I’m not sure what life holds for me tomorrow but I can be sure to face it with confidence with you by my side.