I could try and put in words what I’m feeling right now, but I doubt any would work. My mom always said that a change is as good as a rest. She was right. Even though I took a mini vacation after quitting my previous position, nothing compares to the satisfaction I get from being at my current one.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s busy, very busy. I just swallow my lunch most days. There is always stuff to do, meetings to go to, fires to put out. I feel important here, like I’m given the opportunity to use my brain, figure stuff out. It’s been scary but it’s also pushed me to the next level, where I doubted my abilities, I’ve been able to prove myself wrong and just as importantly, I am improving on areas where I suck. I’m glad my boss feels like they can rely on me. In the past just 3 weeks I’ve conducted meetings, updated clients on projects, done presentations for clients, I was given the liberty to design a newsletter.. I am loving this! All my fears about it being rigid and the commute and new co-workers and..all past tense. It’s amazing how we can push ourselves in a corner. I’m glad I didn’t stay there.
Ok, so it’s just not my job that is making me happy. I feel like my life finally took off from a year of fear and unknown to greatness. A lot of good things have happened this summer. I sometimes have to pinch myself just to make sure that I’m not dreaming. My family was struggling to finish up a project and they finally did. My lil man is so grown up, he cracks me up everyday. I’m surrounded by such loving people. The weather has been great. Can you say bbqs ! Just going to the lake and looking at the water gives me so much to be thankful for. And… drum roll…I have met an exceptional and phenomenal man. Yes, he is all that. I feel very blessed. I don’t feel rushed. I don’t feel the pressure. I am very sure of myself. I am myself. I feel loved. What more could I ask for? This is a true testament as to how God works, and for all who are struggling that things do turn around. Like Yolanda Adams would say, “If he did it for me, he can do it for you”.
5 comments:
Hi Shiz, am an ardent fan of your blog, got the link from Wambui-we're good friends from way back.
Your blog is encouraging and reading this post felt like I was reading something from my own life story. I can relate to most of the stuff there and I also just recently quit my job and am definitley looking forward to greater things. It's very good and to just be confident in our abilities without looking for external validation and then just leave everything to God to take care of the stuff for us because after all he is the one who placed us here each of us for a purpose.
You go gal!!
I am so thrilled that everything has finally come full circle in your life!!
Ebbz, thanks for stopping by. I read your blog too.
Princess, thanks. That is how I feel, like I've come full circle.
thanks for the encouragement, rahab.
Gal! I am soooo very proud of you!!!! Can you say "FULL CIRCLE"!!!! Dang!!!!! You go Gal!!!! Blaze the trail !!!! There is no limit to what you can accomplish and everything happens for a reason. As Kanye put it - "What does not kill you can only make you stronger!!!
Will have to email you with my updates - they are too long! Most importanly - I am soooo very proud of you and your accomplishments this far!!!
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