theme poem

Freedom

I am a prisoner
Trapped
Never to move
Never to express myself
Never to be heard

I am a prisoner
Manipulated
Trying to move
Trying to express myself
Words twisted, never heard

I’m a prisoner
Motivated
Making the first step
Speaking up despite the fear
Heard

I’m not a prisoner
Liberated
Moving mountains
Expressing myself
Respected

I’m not a prisoner
Independent
Free to love
Head held up high
I am free!

I like poetry, I remember trying to 'dissect' poetry in high school. What was that all about? There are some rules I guess but I wrote this poem my own way. I wrote it when I was going through some heavy stuff. I went though every one of those stages. It's not an implied meaning. I have experienced abuse in my life and have overcome and that is what is most important. When you have to come into contact with someone who has abused you, it becomes imperative to find yourself so that you are not always taking a step back every time there is interaction. Yesterday I had to be in the same space as this person, I'm always anxious when this happens. But yesterday I had no negative or anxious feelings, I just wondered what I ever saw in that man...that's all. The hardest thing is forgiving myself because regardless of the other person, there are choices I made in my life that led me there...that is the really hard part. The greatest part is the wisdom I have acquired in the trying times. I know how it feels to be in a place of powerlessness and fear. I know how it feels to loose yourself, and feel like you are going crazy. I know how it feels to be in denial. But I am no longer naive, no longer afraid, no longer in denial. I embrace who I am and embrace reality. I know my boundaries, I know when to walk away or run fast. Every now and then, I stop to reflect on how far I've come, I don't dwell on it but I know it's a part of me.